Sunday, November 11, 2012

How is it having 2U2?

I was asked this recently...and I had a hard time answering.  The question caught me off-guard.  All I could come up with was, HARD.  One word.  One measly word to describe my life.  {Seriously, Taylor??}  I stood there dumbfounded, scrambling for the right words-- for more words.  How could I possibly begin to describe the blessing challenge that is having two children under two years old?  I haven't been able to stop thinking about our exchange; I'm not happy with my response, and even if that person doesn't see this blog post, I want to give a more accurate, detailed answer for my own personal sanity...

Without doubt, our biggest struggle has been sleep...  If Parker isn't sleeping, none of us are.  And if none of us are sleeping, we go a little crazy.

When Parker was new, he slept all day long, so the majority of my time was devoted to Lucy.  We only had trouble during his brief waketimes; Lucy would whine or act out.  {I think this was largely due to her schedule changing so drastically-- going from full-time daycare to full-time mommy.  She wasn't used to spending everyday with me; and she expected that the days we did spend together to be all about her.}  I often found myself very frustrated with my inability to discipline her while breastfeeding Parker, so I would snap at her and then feel horribly guilty.

Then Parker stopped sleeping altogether.  Naps were.not.happening.  He would stay up for hours and turn into this overtired, miserable thing.  He would scream if I wasn't holding him, making me pretty much useless around the house.  I felt like the worst mom because I didn't know how to put my baby to sleep.  Was also pissed because I couldn't brush my teeth until Casey got home.

But...I'm happy to say...I think we are through the worst of it.

Three things made that possible.
1)  Lucy has become slightly more independent, and will play by herself when I need to feed/change Parker.
2)  Parker is sleeping.  That boy is like clockwork.  Having a schedule has been a game changer.  
3)  I re-prioritized.  I hate walking by piles of dirty dishes and laundry, but I choose to ignore the mess.  Kids first, dishes later.

Every family is different, and so is every child.  Who knows, maybe my kids are exceptionally difficult sleepers?  Or maybe I'm just easily overwhelmed?  The first two months of Parker's life were the two most stressful months of my life.  Of course, it didn't help that we were also juggling a crazy stressful financial situation and launching a new business during this time.  Having 2U2 is hard, and there have been times when both Lucy and Parker are crying, and {in my head} I'm screaming, "Eff, eff, eff, eff, EFFFFFFFFFF!"  But, I promise you, it is worth it and it will not kill you.



  1. Glad you are surviving an getting some sleep!

  2. I think you are doing a fantastic job (all while baking some seriously delicious snacks!) and YAY for sleep.